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Yay! my cushions are finally sellling ^_^ I finally got permission to post about them on a forum I'm on, on I think Wednesday, and I've already got orders for 5 o_O Only problem is that my pot pourri just doesn't want to take on the scent so that at the moment, my cinnamon smells like cloves and nutmeg, my vanilla smells like buttercream (which is ok since buttercream's yummy), my lavender smells like lavender (SUCCESS!) and my rose smells like a pile of fresh cut grass and dahlias. I'm currently overloading it with rose oil and then I'm going to bake it a bit to dry it out, see if that draws out the scent a little (as it would appear that the 'dried star flowers' I got aren't so much dried as 'facecloth hung over the edge of the bath for 4 hours' dried, ie, almost dry but with slight residual dampness). But, luckily, the only ones I have definite confirmation on scent for are vanilla ones, so I can get those done and scent off (if you'll pardon the pun :P).

Oooooh, and I also got picked as a new moderator on the unofficial Il Divo fan club site, which is gooood. it may not be a big deal or anything, but for someone who's never really done anything much useful outside of the home before, it's a big deal for me, because for once I have a role that's useful and fun, and can lead to more friends, which is always a good thing.

Thirdfully, I got a letter through the post from our M.E. group, asking if I want to 'do it again', namely abseiling off the Tyne Bridge. I took one look at it and burst out laughing. Yes, I did it last year, and yes I earned money for the group, and yes it was well worth it for the charity and the awareness we raised, and yes, it was kinda fun, in that 'oh my god I actually survived, I really am invincible' kinda way, but there is NO WAY IN HELL they are getting me back up there. It took me ten minutes just to stop shaking enough to get over the edge, and then another ten minutes to get rid of the shaking AGAIN once they'd found a box tall enough for me to stand on to actually get over the edge. And let me tell you, if you've never been abseiling before, it's a great way to find out what a thong feels like when it's fitting wrong. They strapped me into the harness, and the harness didn't quite take into account the fact that I'm shorter than a person of my girth would normally be, so all the way down that rope I was practically flat on my back with two straps around my legs alternating between wrapping themselves under my knees and trying to cut me in half up through the middle. I walked funny for hours after that. And they want me to do it again? Nooooooo thankyou.

And while I'm on the subject of ridiculousness, what on earth is it with dog dogs (as opposed to bitch dogs) and PEEING!?! I mean, I know they're marking their territory and lal that jazz, but is it really necessary to walk along half a block sniffing and peeing on every single doorstep? And then, once they've done that, is it really necessary to do the exact same thing on the way back, on the exact same route in the exact same spots, sniffing their OWN markings and re-scenting, even when they've run out of pee? It struck me this morning just how ridiculous that is, when I was walking Buddy (our little Shih Tzu). He walked down the street, sniffing and marking every yard, and then did his little lamppost-sniff-n-pee before turning around and heading back. on the way back, he did the same thing, but about halfway along, he ran out, so that he was raising his leg and nothing was happening. And then, stupid little canine he is, he wandered along to the next yard, sniffed the entrance, and rather than even raising his leg, he just stood with his butt up against the wall for a second. I mean, what is that?! If a dog's gotta try and mark, he can at least TRY to pee. Yet more evidence that even in other species, the male is still obsessed with being superior, even when it's all show.

Anywho, that's my rant over with, and my news told, see y'all later!

I just twisted my ankle. Anyone got a spare hug they care to send?

In case you're wondering, yes it was a stupid reason, the guy that's usually nice and brings our bin in the yard for us didn't do it today so I was pulling it in after taking the dog for his walk and went over on my ankle on the step in the yard (it was dark so I didn't realise how close I was to it).

Well, I can now officially say that my exams are OVER!!!!!!!!!!! Had my interpreting exam approximately an hour ago and it was sheer torture. Of course Peter came out of his yesterday with the usual 'oh yeah, it was fiiiiiiine, no problem at all!'. Yeah, unless you've got a short-term memory with about as much retaining capacity as a hula hoop, like mine. Went okay at first, then got halfway through and WHAM! the memory block hits, and I can't remember more than half a sentence at a time. So I had to ask the lecturer to repeat some of the stuff about 4 times through, not good. Speaking of which, I'm currently hunched in my chair because she just walked in and I sooooo don't need a lecture about memory exercises right now. So yeah, got through that bit, eventually, and then managed the last bit relatively painlessly, if painless is anything less than wanting to rip your fingernails out because that'd probably hurt less. Came out, still shaking, and the next guy's standign outside as if he's waiting for his turn in the bathroom! I wanted to strangle him. Well, not really coz he's nice, but u know what I mean.

Anyways, in other news, my stories are coming along nicely (for those of you who don't know, I write fanfiction about whoever and whatever piques my interest and currently it's Il Divo so I've got 2 stories on the go about them. One's currently on part 18 and the other's on part 7, they're the kind where you post a bit when you've written it so it can go on as long as people want it to, which is good). People really seem to like them, which is great because it means I get good practice, and they're never shy about giving me pointers when I need them or go off track.

Also, I have a new family! No, not really, they're my 'adopted' family, in the sense that we treat each other as if we really were family and we're as close as family. There's Auntie Aileen (who's nowhere near as old as real Auntie Elaine so I don't need to worry about getting them confused, besides both of them being awesome), then there's my two new sisters Lauren (Loz) and Brandie (Bran). So there's Aileen from Scotland, Bran from the States and Loz from Australia, isn't that cool? Yeah, I'm easily pleased. They're all totally nuts, like me, but that's what makes it so awesome, we have huuuuuuuuge long conversations about absolute nonsense, great stress-reliever. Loz and Bran write fanfic as well, and they're both absolutely awesome at it. Plus, Loz's new story has me in it! So cool! Yeah, like I said, easily pleased :P

So, how's everyone doing? Nobody ever posts on my lj anymore :'( it makes me sad and all left-out-feeling. Well, not really, but it does get lonely on here. Okay, I'm done, I shall updatify more later, when I feel like typing more. If anybody's completely insane and fancies reading my stories and giving me feedback (probably helps if you like Il Divo, though it's not totally essential), bearing in mind that they're not finished, they're works in progress, just post and I'll give you a link to them.

See y'all later!!!

U know what I hate? When the simplest thing in the world simply will not go to plan. Mum was working on my Grad ball dress today and she had sewn all the pieces of it together, a lovely full-ish skirt and fitted upper half. Or not. It would seem that the picture of the pattern is somewhat misleading in comparison to the actual pattern. As I said to mum, my gold dress has become a gold corset. Despite being supposedly the right size and having a flowing skirt, the actual pattern is for a dress about 2 sizes too small (despite mum having added extra fabric for the seam allowance) and the 'flowing skirt' is virtually as tight as a trouser leg. So yeah, I'm not happy at the pattern people because, since it's virtually impossible to adjust it without the dress looking awful, and there's no way she could get fabric and re-cut and sew the entire thing again in time, I now have to go out tomorrow morning, before my interpreting exam tomorrow and get some sort of tummy trimmer or something in an attempt to shrink my entire figure 2-3 sizes. HA! Fat chance! (if you'll pardon the pun) I mean, one size, maybe, but 2-3? I'd need a proper corset for that, and I really don't fancy the prospect of getting out of THAT after the ball.

Phew, rant over, I need sleep. Nighty nighty all!

Oh yeah, great news! I found an old friend of mine from High School on here! It's soooo cool coz I was just talking bout him the other day and all of a sudden, there he is :-| go figure

So yesterday (or the other day since it's no longer Thursday), Mum's looking at a map of the States and looking for Plymouth, Indiana. The following ensued:

Me: What are you looking for?
Mum: Indiana
Me: Well where is it in the book?
Mum: What?
Me: Indiana
Mum: *pointing to the page she was on* It's right there
Me: so why are you looking in the index (as she flips back tothe index)
Mum: Because I'm looking for Indiana for God's sake!

Also:

Me: So where's Warsaw? (not meaning the Poland one)
Mum: Innianda. I mean Innianna. I mean Indianda. Oh for God's sake! It's there! *pointing to the page*

And later in the evening, when I had reworked a song to sound like the chipmunks:

Mum: (with headphones on her head, listening to the song) That's great! How did you do that?
Me: I have a program on my computer that has a pitch enhancer in it
Mum: What's a pigeon hancer?

Gotta love antihistamines :-D

o/' When you're alone and life is making you lonely you can always go.....................................

DOWNTOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! o/'

That is all.

Just to let everyone who knew her know, my dog, Mitzi, passed away yesterday at 12:18pm, 13 years old. She was put to sleep after suffering days of extreme coughing fits and an ulcerated eye, neither of which could have been treated without simply prolonging her suffering.

Well, yet again, I've got a toothache, but this time the dentist won't do anything much about it except give me antibiotics and tell me to take neurofen capsules, all well and good except that I spent the evening yesterday feeling like I'd swallowed half a pint of milk (i'm lactose intolerant and milk makes me sick) because I took the neurofen, so now it's a choice between nausea and toothache: I think nausea wins, I'm not clawing my face to bits again.

In other news, I'm pissed, and not the drunk kind. Yet again, the a$$hole (and this time I'm actually not referring to Chelle, much as I'd like to) has decided that hey, it's a good idea to get Peter into work at 6 on the morning of an exam! Ummmm NO! So yeah, it's very tempting to go in and claw that guy's face to bits instead, less pain for me but still the same satisfaction. So right now I'm wondering, do I swipe the bf's phone and tell the boss to fuck off, or just go in there myself in the morning and say it to his face? Any suggestions will be greatly appreciated, especially the violent ones.

In the last 24 hours have you..

1. Had sex: No
2. Bought something: Yes
3. Sang: Of course
4. Been kissed: Yes
5. Ate something: Yes
6. Felt stupid around anyone: Yes
7. Talked to an ex: no
8. Missed someone: Yes

Last person who...

1. Slept in your bed: Me (or peter if u mean besides me)
2. Saw you cry: Peter
3. Made you cry: My dad
4. You went to the movies with: Pete (not my bf, the other Pete)

Have you Ever...

1. Said I love you and meant it? Yes
2. Got in a fight with your pet? Is that even normal?
3. Been to California? Nope
4. Been to Mexico? Nope
5. Been to the UK? Gee, ya think?
6. Been to Europe? Yup
Random...

1. Do you have a crush on someone? If you count love
2. Do you have a crush on a myspacer? nope
3. What book are you reading now? Lord of the Rings, Calvin and Hobbes, The Simulacra and Neuromancer
4. Worst feeling in the world? being bullied
6. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? not lately
7. What's under your bed? random things (my overnight bag and some other random stuff)
8. Favorite sports to watch? Football
9. Location? My room
10. Piercing/Tattoos? Ears
11. Favourite Alcoholic Drink? I don't drink
12. What are you scared of? Spiders, death, loud noises, drunk people and clouds
13. Where do you want to get laid? is that to rest? in the ground :P and besides that, none of your beeswax lol
14. Who do you really hate? Someone who shall only be referred to as BQ (understandable to those in the know), Michael
15. Do you work? Sorta, I'm a carer for my parents, and a student
16. Do you like being around people? Sometimes, but not lots of them
17. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with? Hasn't everyone?
18. Have you ever lied? Yup.
19. Are you lonely right now? a bit
20. Song that's stuck in your head? Danny Boy
22. Been beaten up? yes
23. Done an all-nighter? once or twice
24. Been on radio/TV? a couple times, but not planned (just as a random interview)
25. Been in a mosh-pit? No
26. Do you have any gay friends? lots and lots

A look back at 2005... 40 questions about 2005.

1) Was 2005 a good year for you? not at all, things went wrong left right and centre

2) What was your favorite moment of the year? finding out that my friend was pregnant and engaged, and that Peter's sister had had her baby

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? the 4 days I spent in the flat in France

4) Where were you when 2005 began? at home, as always

5) Who were you with? myself

6) Where were you when 2005 ended? on the sofa in my house

7) Who were you with when 2005 ended? myself

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005? I didn't have one

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006? Yup, to lose weight

10) Did you fall in love in 2005? nope, just stayed there and even more so

11) If yes, with who? Peter

12) If yes, do they know? ure as hell better :P

13) Are you still in love with them? Yes

14) You regret it? Not for a second

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005? Nope

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? Yep

17) Who are your favorite new friends? Rebekah and Joanna

18) What was your favorite month of 2005? July

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005? naturally, I live there (outside of the US, namely the UK)

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? None

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? Yes, in many ways

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? Yup, loads of em

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? Harry Potter

24) What was your favorite song from 2005? American Idiot

25) What was your favorite record from 2005? no clue

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? none

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? Concert? nope

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005? Nope, none

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005? None

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005? One, but only in the literal sense

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? a few things, but none major

31 and a half) Did you just lie? nope

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? When I told sammi
she was a good writer XD - only lie i can think of. Haha

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005? No, I didn't.

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? some, but not in a major way.

36) How much money did you spend in 2005? no idea

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005? on new year's eve, peter telling me he was proud of me :D

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005? do I have to answer that?

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change
something, what would it be? there's too many to name

40) What are your plans for 2006? to lose weight, and various other secret plans

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Spent 4 days crying; stayed in a youth hostel (not connected lol)

2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
nope, i never bother making them coz I forget what ones I made

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
my boyfriend's sister

4. Did anyone close to you die?
It may sound awful, but I can't remember

5. What countries did you visit?
France

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
a decent degree

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
realising that some people are nice on the outside and bitches on the inside while others are assholes on the outside and nice on the inside. Realising just how lucky I am

9. What was your biggest failure?
trusting certain people I shouldn't have

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
M.E. and flu and a very bad stomach bug

11. What was the best thing you bought?
the Katherine Jenkins album for my dad, it was worth it to see his face when he got it (he's her biggest fan)

12. Where did most of your money go?
presents for xmas and phone bills in France

13. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
going to France, coming home, Peter's neice being born, my friend being pregnant/engaged

14. What song will always remind you of 2005?
American Idiot (so apt)

15. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? can't remember last new year's
ii. thinner or fatter? probably fatter
iii. richer or poorer? a bit richer

16. What do you wish you'd done more of?
telling people how I really feel

17. What do you wish you'd done less of?
hiding my thoughts and feelings

18. How did you spend Christmas?
at home

19. Did you fall in love in 2005?
nope, I stayed in love

20. How many one-night stands?
none

21. What was the best book you read?
the Dan Brown books

22. What was your greatest musical (re)discovery?
Andrew Lloyd Weber

23. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
went out for dinner with my boyfriend and our families, was 21

24. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I can't say lol

25. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
same as ever, casual

26. What kept you sane?
Peter

27. Who was the best new person you met?
Sheila (in charge of the M.E. group I go to), and in a sense, Matt

28. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
never judge people until you have all the facts, they often surprise u